The Month of August

I hate the month of August. I've hated it since I was a kid. Random dumb ass stuff always happens in this month. I mean I have had relationships end, my ex boyfriend used to act like an ass, I've lost jobs, I've had accidents, I've had school registration issues, I've had financial issues, had trouble with jobs I've applied for, etc. etc.

This month alone I have been cut by flying glass, had to yell at a badge bunny, sent in a transcript request and form for law school and it STILL has not arrived, got sucked into police drama, had computer issues, dealt with various emotional crises, applied for a job with the local prosecutor and not heard anything, had my car insurance rate go up for some random reason, got knocked on my credit score for some unknown reason, deal with the lying clerk of some judge, and the first time I went to type this, it randomly disappeared!

I think all of this stems back to the fact that I lost my aunt when I was a teenager in August. She just sat down to read a book, closed her eyes, and had a massive stroke. No one could have helped her. I got a phone call in the middle of night that she was gone. That was it.

The thing I remember about her most is her ability to paint. She was just naturally talented. She had a great laugh and a beautiful smile. She was only 46 when she died.

I'm beginning to think that my negative attitude of this month is what attracts such bad things to happen. I think that I just want this month to be like any other, just a good month.

I've lost both of my aunts now on my mom's side. My mom is the only one left. I love both of them and will carry them both with me forever. I just want to remove this negativity and go on.

Thanks for reading!