Venting

I just want to vent. I know it's late/early but I want to get this out. For the life of me I could not figure out what was wrong with me but I think I've finally figure it out.

I am honestly tired of sitting on the sidelines. I see all this crime going on and I can't even do anything about. Instead I have to spend my days in the crap hole that I've decided to keep working at. I can't get out there and do anything. I just really want to doing criminal justice everyday.

The thing is, my dead end public service job, is in a library. A fucking library. I have to deal with stupid ass staff, stupid ass customers with nothing else to do, and the psycho ex-wives of police officers. These dumb ass moronic customers come in to the library and worry about the stupidest shit you can imagine. Where their book is, what book do you recommendation, and other dumb ass shit that is so mundane it's not worth mentioning. I work with people who are happy to work this dead end ass job or decided to pursue degrees from at profit career schools because they are too easy to move on with life.

The kicker is my dumb ass boss. I came in from court and this moron decided to start questioning me about "Why I was so late." None of your fucking business. I didn't say anything nor am I going to give up the one thing that is helping me to be a federal prosecutor. You can kiss my ass and deal with the fuckers who come in late/call out every opportunity possible.

And then mid-week I have to listen to the above mentioned moron go on about me writing a fucking "d" on a form that didn't have a long enough loop. Yep, that's right ladies and gentleman. I dealt with a kid on Monday in court who had 22 felony convictions at 15 and this dumb ass wants to go on about that. I seriously almost laughed her face.

And the issue with my police officer-When I first met him or better yet when I said I'd like to get to know him, the only thing I heard from people I knew from within the department was that a)cops were bad b)cops would beat me and c)cops were cheaters and d)cops were bad. Seriously, that is like bigotry. I am sorry your ex-husband was a dick and that your husband got booted off of the police officer for committing sexual battery on a female detainee (I do like both of these people, really :) ).

Then there is psycho ex-wife who used to call her husband every 10 minutes when he was working. I heard about this chick REPEATEDLY when I was an intern. I just plead the fifth. She's random, that's for sure. I've caught her listening to phone conversations I was having and she's I guess "jealous" of whatever. Yeah chica, you can deal with these criminals too. It's not that fun.

Thank you for allowing me to vent. I'm down to less than a year now. I'm going to study for my LSAT this weekend and buckle down. I'm going to court on Monday and I'm going to keep preparing for my LSAT.